Do You even care at all?

Ya Allah, I thought you said you tests,

only of what we can bear. 

I have been holding on for so long. 

I believed in your promises. 

In Your name, 

I am a believer. 

But help me God,

for I am on the verge of questioning You. 

Not of your existence,

but whether or not,

you are the All Hearing,

All Seeing. 

Because if you are,

why aren't you seeing me?